this is cleethorpes

Always wondered what Cleethorpes was like... This is what it is like. Pretty rubbish. Sheffield is MILES away from the seaside. And the fish and chips were rubbish too and the beach was too windy. I enjoyed the experience nevertheless... And at least it was sunny. The best part of the day was the tent shopping though. Shopping to go camping is just so much fun. I never realised that before!

Does anyone else feel sorry for Pete?

hairdo

It was the PGCE ball last night and L from work came to do my hair. It took us three attempts but in the end I was really pleased with it. Thanks L!

I stole this photo from Andy's blog because I like it.

petrified

Whenever I go to talks to hear about the NQT year I always regret it. I feel first of all intimidated by all the other new teachers who I consider to be much more capable than me and also by the fact that apparently it's really, really, really hard. I'm sick of hearing this. I don't feel ready to be a teacher. I don't feel competent. I'm really scared and I don't know how to shake myself out of feeling this way. I don't want to sign life away for a year. I want to have a life and friends and do fun things too. But I also don't want to let anybody down.

JUNEBUG

I saw this film on Monday and I seriously recommend it. Although I found it hard to warm to the characters, except Ashley (Amy Adams), who is a sweetheart, there's just some kind of magic about this film that I can't put my finger on.

end of school experience 2

Just a quick note or two on today... last day of teaching practice. Next time I'll be a real teacher! I didn't really feel sad to be honest, although I felt that I should. I think I learnt a lot at that school, but the learning curve was no where near as steep as at the-other-school-where-I-got-my-job. Yeah, I'll miss some of the kids, and AB was kind of like a mum to me, and some of the staff were great too. I just didn't appreciate being a spare part really.

Anyway, uni tomorrow to present our "project". Should be fun...

Just off to run to R's to give her her birthday brownie that I made... She's vegetarian - better not be fussy about butter and eggs!

shopping in Fopp again...

more adventure in sheffield

Recovering from a nap after an exciting afternoon of visiting Forge Dam (a big pond near S's house which leads out to the Peaks) and then Redmires reservoir. Honestly though it doesn't sound exciting but it was fun to be walking in the fresh air admiring the countryside. And it was sunny for a bit, so well worth it. (And the tea the Forge Dam cafe was pretty good too.)

Here's a pic of the reservoir. We walked across the moorland too (in my non-sensible shoes) and saw some lost sheep and lots of moss:



Only three weeks till I have to pack up and leave Sheffield again (oh, I'm feeling sorry for myself...) I've really started to think of it as home recently. Even doing the mundane things here are more exciting than in York. Boo I'm going to miss Sheffield!

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S just sent me a picture of a very big hole that was near the reservoir. We couldn't even see to the bottom of it:



Scary eh!

almost the end

I just re-read an entry I wrote in August last year. It seems only weeks ago that I felt those feelings~ anticipation, worry, panic, lack of confidence... And now I look at the calendar see that there are just four weeks to go till the end. Looking back I was being silly but now I think, wow, I made it... (And in the end it wasn't so bad.)

Now I'm feeling the same things about this coming September. This time bigger challenge, new move, new life. I resent this every time. But I need to do the same as last time - see it as a challenge, an adventure. (Not as real life.)

June 27th will be another end-of-an-era. Another year of memories to store, happy and sad, of highs and lows. A rollercoaster year.

I know I'm waffling and being too sentimental, but I hate endings, even if I think I hated what came before or didn't enjoy it. There's always something to be learned from every experience.

Anyway, enough!

The Showroom cinema tomorrow for a guided tour and information about the usefulness of teaching languages through film.