petrified

Whenever I go to talks to hear about the NQT year I always regret it. I feel first of all intimidated by all the other new teachers who I consider to be much more capable than me and also by the fact that apparently it's really, really, really hard. I'm sick of hearing this. I don't feel ready to be a teacher. I don't feel competent. I'm really scared and I don't know how to shake myself out of feeling this way. I don't want to sign life away for a year. I want to have a life and friends and do fun things too. But I also don't want to let anybody down.